Thursday, May 31, 2012

Crazy Busy

I haven't had much to say for a looong time. It's amazing how crazy busy things can get. Doing the Urban Farm thing while attending college full time is more of a challenge than I had anticipated. Well, maybe it's a big challenge because I'm so demanding of myself. I wish I knew how to be satisfied with middle-of-the-road grades and an average garden. Why is it that I feel I have to be perfect?

I don't know.

Other things have happened that I let get in the way of this blog. Certain people were swiping my content and my photos and claiming them as their own. I'm not sure how to handle this. I'm sure it happens to other bloggers. I know for sure that Chickens in the Road have had a particularly beautiful goat photo copied and reposted all over the web. She still writes every day, sometimes twice a day.

But more than that, for the first time in a long time I'm not really sure what I want. Scratch that, I know what I want I just don't know how to get it without giving up everything else I want. I own a home in a little goober town. It seems that every Master's Program and every job that uses my skills I look at would require that I leave my home. I don't think I can go back to being a renter. And at 48 I don't know if I'm willing to spend 5 years rebuilding my finances in order to own a home again.

So I'm floundering. And it shows.

On the Lucy. A delightful mini LaMancha doeling who has come to live with us.